Saturday 1 June 2013

aku masuk bar??? *.*



salam and good late night/morning..

*prapp prapp prapp!!
bunyik tangan patah2.. senaman ringan sikit... dah lama xnulis ni.. eheeeeheee..

husna.. maybe kau memang xpatot tulis, tutup laptop dan belajar family law skarg?? final lagi seminggu!!
TANAK!!!! >.< aaaaaa.. sem ni dahsyat hell.. first year pon aku dah rase camni.. ok stop melalut. pokes husna pokes!

ehem... camni cite die..

aku ni.. bolehlaa.. dengan chumelnye mengaku aku ni budak teater.. aiceh! so.. nak dijadikan cerita..
pengarah teater halusinasi is abang modee.. and last thursday night, dia ada show impromptu and he invited us to watch his performance. so when i first heard of that, aku cam esaited gile hell.. donno why -.- sigh..
hehehe.. one, maybe sebab aku nak tunjuk support and thanks for teaching us all these while.. and satu lagi aku mmg suke bab impromptu segala bagai ni. ohh.. btw.. name sebenar abang modee is ashraf zain..kalau perasan.. dia pernah berlakon dengan kakpah amani dalam drama tibi tiga kot.. agak laaa.. meh sini aku tunjuk muka dia..
ha... ini bukan dia.. hahhahaa!! gamba ni aku dapat time google name abg modee.. kihkih.. sape doo mamat ni.. melayu gile muka... ahhh tergoda!! ok bai -.-

ha.... ini baru betol abg modee:) sekali tengok pon dah tau dia ni fun .. :)




after that,

on the day, kterang gerak dua kete.. kete si kazen uyaina and kete hazim.. katenye tempat tu palate pallete.. aku pon okeng jeleee.. xtau pon tempat tu camana cantiknye ke hape ke.. dah orang bawak..duduk dalam kete senyap2 udahlee... borakborak tau-tau ja dah sampai.. heheh :D



ini leee... kedainyee..
bila aku sampai jee.. YA ALLAH!!! hamek kau!!!

last time aku pergi tengok teater dengan geng2 halusinasi, it was at a dewan tau.. so i thought for this kind of performance pon macam gitu juge leee.. skali.. nah!! 
 cantik gak la bile nak nak masuk tuu
deco die sumpah awesome!! xtip



ni lah tempat performance tu.. kat belah atas.. but time tu dia dah susun lain sket deco dia.. cantik en???!! :D

anyway..
yang aku nak habaq mai nya.. its actually RESTAURANT & BAR!!!!! i repeat!! BAR!!!!!!!
weyh.. xpenah la seumur hidup aku masok bar..cium bau arak ke hape ke.. nak minom apetah lagi.. mak aku dapat tau ni memang kena pelangkong!! >.< saya amat reserved orangnye... *senyum simpul.. *haktuuii!!! heheheh :D

anyway..
at first aku xprasan tau.. bila dah naik atas tu.. aku nampk dua perempuan ni was served with wines.. and i was like.. eh waw.. cantiknye gelas... cam minum wine dalam tibi.. nak jugak la air tu..cam air zapel.. series nampak sedap!! xtipu!!! >.<

pastu aku cam.. eh.... bila aku pandang sekeliling... look at the surrounding and the environment.. looking at people glasses of drink tu sume.. then i realized! -.- aku lembab! :) and aku tak tau pon aku bau beer until kazen yana cakap.. eh.. i kluar dululah.. xtahan bau beer.. and i was like.. camne nak bau beer?? *.*
# bodoh.

nak lagi segan tambah pelek tongek nye.. i was wearing jubah on that day.. i repeat.. JUBAH!! >.<
bayangkan!! jubah kat dalam bar??!! are you moron??? dah la jubah! pakai tudung segala bagai... i was like ..shit!! people were looking at me!!! aku cam the true malay girl at that night.. sumpah.. aku rase lawak!! hahaha.. 


the exact purple attire kot.. >.<

sighh.. -.- suke malukan diri sendiri kan husna?? huhuhu

anyway.. the show that night was really good!!! AIIA memang best gile weyh!!!! aku series nak tengok lagi performance dorang.. but not at the bar... seriesly -.-
 anyway.. malam tu jumpe kakpah amani.. hihihi

ini leerr orang2 yang ber-impromptu malam tu.. series talented gile!!! paling best si iedil putra!! suare sedap gileeee :D #fallinlove heheh :D


Saturday 6 April 2013

daisy part two

i promised myself i'll update about that story.. skali scroll nmpak cite tuuu...  hee lupe and dah xd mood nak story best2



anyway.. its actually bkan bunga penghargaan.. its from a guy.. my manager lied to me! and i smiled to him sambil pegang that flower! woot woot.. husna dapat bungee! kembangg sket macam bontot kera.. owwwyeahhh.. i seriously hate my manager for making me macam orang bodoh. aku cite kat mak aku kot aku dapat bunga sebb kerja bagos. aleh2.. -,-.. segan.. nak bgtau balik kat mak aku.. and mak aku tu pulak pegi gatal cte kat kekazen makcik aku jiran tetangge sume nak cite.. ad  there i was.. sitting quietly.. lalalaalalalaaa..
*mak, mak nak tau dak.. anak mak ni sebenanye pemalas.. keje main2.. jangan hharap boss nak bagi bunge. sekian. hehehe

im just sad

koff kofff.. berhabuk gileeeeeeeee.. aaaaaaa :'(
hihi.. its like writing in a diary.. whenever i need you.. you're still here with me. nasib baik password ingat. pheww *lap2 peluh sikit.

ini akan menjadi satu buku novel yang sangt panjang..

wahai blog usang,
i really need to talk to someone but there is just no one to listen to me and i dont want to call people and ask ' hey, what are you doing, do you have time for me?' and akan krikk krikk sangt
i dont know.. i just dont like to share sad stories with people but at the same time i really need someone here with me. and i dont think they want to listen to me anyway -.-

humm.. cik saka dah tidur..

i cant believe i just cried. husna cried. silently at night. pretending to be asleep so that cik saka tak dengar. if dengar, then she started to korek everything from me. no! that will not do.

humm.. why am i sad?

sigh. firstly i feel like im not belonged here. yeah. everyone has that feeling. who cares?! its my story! >.<
i believe that i spending too much time in college. but, i dont have much friends here. here, i have cik saka, i have uyeena, and i have emma. these three girls are my truly really friends here. the rest are just friends. i also have guy friends.. i have halusinasi people. i think.. these people are the only people that knows me well, understands me well, and just accept me the way i am. i dont really have that much of girlfriend, bcoz i just dont know how to make friends. seriously. some may say im cheerful and friendly.. but that only last for few hours. bcoz that was me pretending. i hate pretending. that is why i forget people's name and faces easily. kalau aku tak rase attach tu tak laa.. i wont force myself just to have friends. and sigh.. that's the reason im always alone.. huhuhu.. and as well as cik saka. cik saka pon slalu lonely. but she's better than me.. she can jokes.. and i can do 'kriikk krikk' moment. yeah.  nak cakap aku pilih bulu kah? yeah.. i do choose. aku xreti sangatlah nak baik sangat sebab aku tak. it just that nak jumpe kawan yang betol boleh masok tu susah. sometimes aku rase.. ya Allah baiknye die ni.. it just.. ughhh.. tak masok. im not that bad.. it just that im not that nice either.
and now look at me. friendless. ade projek kat kolej kene stay tapi takde kawan nak cakap borak. its sad. seriously.i dont even know kat bawah tadi ramai gile orang dok lepak sesame after keje.. gelak ketawa.. and here.. its just me and cik saka. cik saka xkesah sebab hobi dia tidur. sigh. but i do. rase macam diketepikan gile hell weyh. macam kau tak wujud je. husna, you're not important in our life. kau yang sombong sangat kan? btw, aku rabun.. and tak ingat orang tu its a penyakit.. dats why aku tak tego orang sebb aku takut salah name kang kecik hati pulak.. spek takpakai salah orang pulak.. or maybe that person doesnt want to talk to me. yeah.

secondly.. im loud. technically im verrrryy loud when it comes to what i want  and what i deserve and my rights. because, its just my nature. if i think its wrong. i say it. i have the right to do so coz im a part of it. yes im really am a pest. i am. tak dinafikan ramai kakak kakak bedah kuat mengumpat duduk dalam bulatan gembira dok megumpat.. and cakap tak puas hati and so on and on and on... no i dont want to be like that. besides im not invited to be in the same circle anyway.. but.. pomm!!! kene perli brape banyak kali dalam meeting.. ugghhh.. that feels so nice. seriously. i mean it. so.. aku rase cam orang annoyed dengan aku. hihi.. aku faham jugakla kenape, cik saka pon rasa macam tu.. sebb die friendly yang tahap melampau ketawa macam dunia ni die yang punye. when she's happy.. she happy. x fake. thhats who she is. awat lu?? xpuas hati ke ngan rumet gua??!! *pfffhhtttt :D

and lastly..
i think im really bad with relationship..
i really am. when im angry, ii wont talk.. i'll go somewhere alone doing stupid stuff or be too happy for no reason and singing by myself. yeah.


now, i really need fazil. he's the only one who'll listen to my stories.. sing to me when i ask him to.. even bile aku call.. die dengan family die... haha.. sumpah lawak!! sori fazil slalu buat kau malu.. i miss you bro!! bile nak makan yogurt ni??!! >.<

note to self. contact him!